Spells Of Deception
The lies that I told you… I too believed them at the time.
So don’t think me so cruel.
I was an idiot under spells of deception.
I was weak in a moment that lasted twenty some odd years.
I know it seems like I owe you but I have only just now found this mirror.
All the times that I’d hold you and whisper goose bumps into your ear.
I said “we are forever!”
I said so many things just to keep you near.
I was weak in a moment that lasted twenty some odd years.
I know it seems like I owe you but I have only just now found the mirror.
I need some time to look around, some time to understand, some time to remember, time to separate…
The lies that I told you… I too believed them at the time.
So don’t think me so cruel.
I was an idiot under spells of deception.
Let Me Try
When you calm down we can talk about all the things that you said in your rage.
I can’t even hear you and I know that I don’t know everything, but I can see the look on your face.
And I know that face I’ve seen it in just about every position; a smile, a frown, and now frozen.
And when the numbness settles in, it seems like noone’s getting in, No matter what they say to you.
But I wanna try.
I wanna try.
I want to be the one to be there for you.
I wanna try.
Let me try.
Let me be the the one to be there for you.
What you left unspoken I picked up as broken pieces trying to set it right.
This is only one moment in a stack of growing memories fading into our history.
I am an observer in the night, watching you leave yet holding you tight.
You’ll never know my love for you.
Listen, I know you try to keep it in, but I see that your thoughts are hidden and you say you can’t let me in.
But I wanna try.
I wanna try.
I want to be the one to be there for you.
I wanna try.
Let me try.
Let me be the the one to be there for you.
Grow Away
The leaves of grass will split and splay
Will grow away
From where the roots push down.
The stone cold shoulders
And crooked focus
Will fester on
Decay in the sun
Eleven years
Like garden rows
So beautiful
You’ve become your own
But the season changes
With God’s cycle
And we are faced
With what we must
Your story starts here.
This is not the end.
Stacks of white paper
Are the walls and stairs.
Fill in the pages
And always know…
The pain of ages
Is how we grow away.
Time is a lenient shepherd
Letting memories stray and dissipate.
Just take what matters
Let the rest be clustered
And released like tiny sparrows in the night.
